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So many things I have to do, I have to get over the hurtful things and move on with my life, sort my life out for the better because If I don’t I’ll just keep stressing and I do not have time for it. Too many plans, too many places, too many faces. I need to explore, be more adventurous, let go, live and let God. Be me, do well and succeed. Life is really what it is (and I understand). I need to get all the simple things out of the way and move on to the bigger things and make life easier for me and for others. Everything is not always what it seems. (Well that’s what they say) and we’ll all find out in the end. But I believe it’s true. The truth never lies. Anyway, life is but a story and we all get to play our part. - What people don’t seem to realise is when a woman needs her space she needs her SPACE. My only problem with myself is that when I am unorganised I panic way too much. I need to keep calm and get stuff done, be more organised so I don’t have to hesitate and mess things up. Birthdays, Christmas’s, Holidays, this always seems to happen to me leaving me in a really bad mood which needs to stop. I should be able to get it together so when the time comes I’m prepared and don’t have to worry about, “I didn’t get to do this”, “I didn’t get to do that”, what I’m trying to say is that my life needs to be more organised, I need everything to go right from now on, no stress, no pain, just my life running smoothly. Being unorganised messes up everything for me, leaving me feeling angry, stressed, miserable, down, useless and unhappy. Even sometimes confused and the hesitation at the last minute. All the last minute stuff need to stop from here on out. Tired of being left with the pain and expect to cope with it, I don’t know how to cope with something like that. I’ve never been in such terrible situations before so it’s kind of hard to try and cope with something you don’t understand and never been through before but I will overcome, push through, conquer and defeat. My life is on a journey to greatness. I will not be left with anymore scars and be given more than I can bare cause I trust myself and “MY RULER GOD”. It hurts when you’re on your own and going through stuff and no one understands you or believe you. I’m tired of people trying to lead my life and expect me to follow them cause they think they know what I want. I’m not a push over, I hate to be controlled. and for the people who think that I am, YOU SUCK. And I find it funny. (Good things come to those who wait) and that’s why I treasure those who I’m extremely close to. That is all for now:) - DN